Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Sleepless, as usual


Heaven bent to take my hand,
And lead me through the fire,
Be the long awaited answer,
To a long and painful fight...

Sarah Mclachlan’s Fallen plays softly in the background. Her ghostly voice and a matching rhythm complements the prevailing pensive mood hovering above me. The gloomy lyrics are mostly drowned out by the ageing ceiling fan pleading for repairs in a decible more squeaky than ever.

I sat for two hours in semi-darkness tonight, staring blankly at a glaring computer screen, distracted occasionally by the faint sound of an overfed rodent doing his routine workout on his undersized hamster wheel.

I am both apathetic and impatient.

I’m waiting for the day Malaysia gets a new ruling party, one that is different from the corrupted, racist, bigoted federal government we have right now. The Sabah People’s Progressive Party (SAPP) is scheduled to make a groundbreaking announcement by morning. Is this the beginning of a new era for Malaysia or is this another one of those false alarms?

Actually, it doesn’t really matter that much. Regardless of whoever is in power, I know fully well that there will be no radical transformation for the land called Malaysia. The social inequality and religious dominance will remain, if not in one form at least in another. PAS Youth will still make silly unrealistic statements and the DAP will still be opposing fervently. Singapore will still lure the local professionals and Malaysia will remain the greatest supplier of trained and skilful personnel.

Whatever happens, whatever does not, I will not lose sight of the people (and animal friends) that matter to me.

In the end, as Lilo and Stitch put it, family sticks together.

“"This is my family…. It's little, and broken, but still good." Stitch, 2002

5 comments:

avant garde said...

Welcome back, blow the horns and play the harps. We love you too in Seremban. There will be rejoicing in the morning.

Anonymous said...

THE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM

Quote
“I’m waiting for the day Malaysia gets a new ruling party, one that is different from the corrupted, RACIST, bigoted federal government we have right now.”

“The social inequality and religious dominance will remain…”
Unquote

Oh yes the old chestnut. This hoary old problem of race and religion.

Aside
Is it not ironical that one of the most vociferous and fervent defender of the special rights and privileges enjoyed by the Malays is that crusty, crotchety retired politician whose father is an Indian immigrant born and raised in Kerala?

Pardon me, but isn’t the Indian society/community a patrilineal one? If so, shouldn’t the progeny of an Indian be recognized and registered as an Indian?

How is it possible for the offspring of an Indian man (whose name as registered in original birth certificate is xxxxxxxxx S/O Mohamed Iskandar Kutty) to suddenly belong to the dominant race? Curious eh!


Q8-) Nonplussed

James koh said...

Yeap. It's little, and broken, but still good

Agreed

Looking forward to your next post. Cheers.

sojourner said...

so sarah machlachlan is your kind of music huh? now i know what's not 'gay' to you :) and i just realised that you and 'old mother' has something in common. both of you have pensive mood. hahahaha!

Gan said...

"The social inequality and religious dominance will remain, if not in one form at least in another. PAS Youth will still make silly unrealistic statements and the DAP will still be opposing fervently........."

so very true .... a tinge of hopelessness and helplessness engulfs me.