Just as I had expected, treatment of my recently diagnosed medical condition has turned me into a dull and stoned person if not already, prior to this.
I have been struggling to think and write but each time the blank page of Microsoft Word appears, my goes as blank as the white screen.
There is no motivation to pen my thoughts, no drive to make any shocking exposẻ and no irritation to the things that usually drive me up the wall.
Is this the beginning of the end of POTS?
Or is this the beginning of another beginning, one with a more subdued and mellow version of myself?
Was all my supposed righteous rebellion the result of misguided neurons instead of an inherent sense of right and wrong?
Am I now my true self, the personality I am suppose to possess all this while without the influence of a deranged physiology?
Will I be happy rediscovering a fresh identity or will I cling on to a deceased self that continues to linger around for a while?
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Posted by Product of the System at 1:42 AM